I'm suffering from the Black Dog - have been for some time; have also been trying to ignore it for just as long. In the last week, it's really jumped on me and so it's bothering me quite a bit.
In the past week, I looked on the fridge - at my tally of the donations - and found that I've donated 10 times to my local charity stores. This is more than I did last year (which was 9 times), and yet it's only June. So, there's more to donate before the year is out.
However, I'm just finding it hard to get myself back into the decluttering this month. So, I haven't ignored you guys. I'm not motivated right now.
In amongst all the decluttering and the dumping of my lounge at the tip (I can't believe I had to do that - what a waste!), I am attending art school and have a workshop this weekend to keep myself active. I'm not keeping quiet about my depression - as it's just not me to keep this kind of thing bottled up, and talking about it usually helps me.
The house has come so far, and I've donated so much over the years. However, now, I know it's time I moved into a proper, real house; and out of the townhouse. This is a financial thing as well as a situational and area thing... I don't do my grocery shopping where I live, I don't socialise with anyone in the unit complex and I don't talk to any of my neighbours anymore - this is over the past 6 months - and so these are strong signals that it's time to move. My brother has noticed my silence and that my need to get out - as I'm never home when he calls me - and he's told me that I need to move and I have agreed with him.
So, it's a matter of getting my folks to agree to moving me as well. This will take time... until then, I'll have to live with my depression and keep on cleaning out my tiny townhouse until they realise I'm truly not happy with my living situation. But I'd like to move within a year. I know that sounds like a short amount of time; but really, it doesn't take me long to find a place to live, and I would like to start looking soon so I can take my 70's retro style to the next level, and not be stuck with a tiny house unable to have a dinner party, bbq or friends come over without them feeling as though we're sitting on top of each other.
In the past week, I looked on the fridge - at my tally of the donations - and found that I've donated 10 times to my local charity stores. This is more than I did last year (which was 9 times), and yet it's only June. So, there's more to donate before the year is out.
However, I'm just finding it hard to get myself back into the decluttering this month. So, I haven't ignored you guys. I'm not motivated right now.
In amongst all the decluttering and the dumping of my lounge at the tip (I can't believe I had to do that - what a waste!), I am attending art school and have a workshop this weekend to keep myself active. I'm not keeping quiet about my depression - as it's just not me to keep this kind of thing bottled up, and talking about it usually helps me.
The house has come so far, and I've donated so much over the years. However, now, I know it's time I moved into a proper, real house; and out of the townhouse. This is a financial thing as well as a situational and area thing... I don't do my grocery shopping where I live, I don't socialise with anyone in the unit complex and I don't talk to any of my neighbours anymore - this is over the past 6 months - and so these are strong signals that it's time to move. My brother has noticed my silence and that my need to get out - as I'm never home when he calls me - and he's told me that I need to move and I have agreed with him.
So, it's a matter of getting my folks to agree to moving me as well. This will take time... until then, I'll have to live with my depression and keep on cleaning out my tiny townhouse until they realise I'm truly not happy with my living situation. But I'd like to move within a year. I know that sounds like a short amount of time; but really, it doesn't take me long to find a place to live, and I would like to start looking soon so I can take my 70's retro style to the next level, and not be stuck with a tiny house unable to have a dinner party, bbq or friends come over without them feeling as though we're sitting on top of each other.
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